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27 enero

Wedding Photos

忙了近半年,终于在24号把婚礼办了,感谢大家的问候和礼物,我奉上一些照片,雅赏。

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也跟大家拜年啦!

18 mayo

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转自MITBBS.COM



那个爷爷说过:

一个很小的问题,乘以13亿,都会变成一个大问题;

一个很大的总量,除以13亿,都会变成一个小数目。

现在我们要说:

一点很小的善心,乘以13亿,都会变成爱的海洋;

一个很大的困难,除以13亿,都会变得微不足道。



14 mayo

中国加油

义勇军进行曲
 
起来!
不愿做奴隶的人们!
把我们的血肉,
筑成我们新的长城!
中华民族到了
最危险的时候,
每个人被迫着
发出最後的吼声!
起来!
起来!
起来!
我们万众一心,
冒着敌人的炮火
前进,
冒着敌人的炮火
前进!
前进!
前进!进!!! 

24 abril

You and Your Research


I came across a very interesting talk, actually it's one of the best advice I have ever heard about "Doing Research".

You may find it too long, here is a   online version   you can download to your computer and read a little bit every day.

Enjoy! Coffee cup



You and Your Research



Richard Hamming

Transcription of the
Bell Communications Research Colloquium Seminar
7 March 1986


At a seminar in the Bell Communications Research Colloquia Series, Dr. Richard W. Hamming, a Professor at the Naval Postgraduate School in Monterey, California and a retired Bell Labs scientist, gave a very interesting and stimulating talk, `You and Your Research' to an overflow audience of some 200 Bellcore staff members and visitors at the Morris Research and Engineering Center on March 7, 1986. This talk centered on Hamming's observations and research on the question ``Why do so few scientists make significant contributions and so many are forgotten in the long run?'' From his more than forty years of experience, thirty of which were at Bell Laboratories, he has made a number of direct observations, asked very pointed questions of scientists about what, how, and why they did things, studied the lives of great scientists and great contributions, and has done introspection and studied theories of creativity. The talk is about what he has learned in terms of the properties of the individual scientists, their abilities, traits, working habits, attitudes, and philosophy.

In order to make the information in the talk more widely available, the tape recording that was made of that talk was carefully transcribed. This transcription includes the discussions which followed in the question and answer period. As with any talk, the transcribed version suffers from translation as all the inflections of voice and the gestures of the speaker are lost; one must listen to the tape recording to recapture that part of the presentation. While the recording of Richard Hamming's talk was completely intelligible, that of some of the questioner's remarks were not. Where the tape recording was not intelligible I have added in parentheses my impression of the questioner's remarks. Where there was a question and I could identify the questioner, I have checked with each to ensure the accuracy of my interpretation of their remarks.

INTRODUCTION OF DR. RICHARD W. HAMMING

As a speaker in the Bell Communications Research Colloquium Series, Dr. Richard W. Hamming of the Naval Postgraduate School in Monterey, California, was introduced by Alan G. Chynoweth, Vice President, Applied Research, Bell Communications Research.

Alan G. Chynoweth: Greetings colleagues, and also to many of our former colleagues from Bell Labs who, I understand, are here to be with us today on what I regard as a particularly felicitous occasion. It gives me very great pleasure indeed to introduce to you my old friend and colleague from many many years back, Richard Hamming, or Dick Hamming as he has always been know to all of us.

Dick is one of the all time greats in the mathematics and computer science arenas, as I'm sure the audience here does not need reminding. He received his early education at the Universities of Chicago and Nebraska, and got his Ph.D. at Illinois; he then joined the Los Alamos project during the war. Afterwards, in 1946, he joined Bell Labs. And that is, of course, where I met Dick - when I joined Bell Labs in their physics research organization. In those days, we were in the habit of lunching together as a physics group, and for some reason this strange fellow from mathematics was always pleased to join us. We were always happy to have him with us because he brought so many unorthodox ideas and views. Those lunches were stimulating, I can assure you.

While our professional paths have not been very close over the years, nevertheless I've always recognized Dick in the halls of Bell Labs and have always had tremendous admiration for what he was doing. I think the record speaks for itself. It is too long to go through all the details, but let me point out, for example, that he has written seven books and of those seven books which tell of various areas of mathematics and computers and coding and information theory, three are already well into their second edition. That is testimony indeed to the prolific output and the stature of Dick Hamming.

I think I last met him - it must have been about ten years ago - at a rather curious little conference in Dublin, Ireland where we were both speakers. As always, he was tremendously entertaining. Just one more example of the provocative thoughts that he comes up with: I remember him saying, ``There are wavelengths that people cannot see, there are sounds that people cannot hear, and maybe computers have thoughts that people cannot think.'' Well, with Dick Hamming around, we don't need a computer. I think that we are in for an extremely entertaining talk.

THE TALK: ''You and Your Research'' by Dr. Richard W. Hamming

It's a pleasure to be here. I doubt if I can live up to the Introduction. The title of my talk is, ``You and Your Research.'' It is not about managing research, it is about how you individually do your research. I could give a talk on the other subject - but it's not, it's about you. I'm not talking about ordinary run-of-the-mill research; I'm talking about great research. And for the sake of describing great research I'll occasionally say Nobel-Prize type of work. It doesn't have to gain the Nobel Prize, but I mean those kinds of things which we perceive are significant things. Relativity, if you want, Shannon's information theory, any number of outstanding theories - that's the kind of thing I'm talking about.

Now, how did I come to do this study? At Los Alamos I was brought in to run the computing machines which other people had got going, so those scientists and physicists could get back to business. I saw I was a stooge. I saw that although physically I was the same, they were different. And to put the thing bluntly, I was envious. I wanted to know why they were so different from me. I saw Feynman up close. I saw Fermi and Teller. I saw Oppenheimer. I saw Hans Bethe: he was my boss. I saw quite a few very capable people. I became very interested in the difference between those who do and those who might have done.

When I came to Bell Labs, I came into a very productive department. Bode was the department head at the time; Shannon was there, and there were other people. I continued examining the questions, ``Why?'' and ``What is the difference?'' I continued subsequently by reading biographies, autobiographies, asking people questions such as: ``How did you come to do this?'' I tried to find out what are the differences. And that's what this talk is about.

Now, why is this talk important? I think it is important because, as far as I know, each of you has one life to live. Even if you believe in reincarnation it doesn't do you any good from one life to the next! Why shouldn't you do significant things in this one life, however you define significant? I'm not going to define it - you know what I mean. I will talk mainly about science because that is what I have studied. But so far as I know, and I've been told by others, much of what I say applies to many fields. Outstanding work is characterized very much the same way in most fields, but I will confine myself to science.

In order to get at you individually, I must talk in the first person. I have to get you to drop modesty and say to yourself, ``Yes, I would like to do first-class work.'' Our society frowns on people who set out to do really good work. You're not supposed to; luck is supposed to descend on you and you do great things by chance. Well, that's a kind of dumb thing to say. I say, why shouldn't you set out to do something significant. You don't have to tell other people, but shouldn't you say to yourself, ``Yes, I would like to do something significant.''

In order to get to the second stage, I have to drop modesty and talk in the first person about what I've seen, what I've done, and what I've heard. I'm going to talk about people, some of whom you know, and I trust that when we leave, you won't quote me as saying some of the things I said.

Let me start not logically, but psychologically. I find that the major objection is that people think great science is done by luck. It's all a matter of luck. Well, consider Einstein. Note how many different things he did that were good. Was it all luck? Wasn't it a little too repetitive? Consider Shannon. He didn't do just information theory. Several years before, he did some other good things and some which are still locked up in the security of cryptography. He did many good things.

You see again and again, that it is more than one thing from a good person. Once in a while a person does only one thing in his whole life, and we'll talk about that later, but a lot of times there is repetition. I claim that luck will not cover everything. And I will cite Pasteur who said, ``Luck favors the prepared mind.'' And I think that says it the way I believe it. There is indeed an element of luck, and no, there isn't. The prepared mind sooner or later finds something important and does it. So yes, it is luck. The particular thing you do is luck, but that you do something is not.

For example, when I came to Bell Labs, I shared an office for a while with Shannon. At the same time he was doing information theory, I was doing coding theory. It is suspicious that the two of us did it at the same place and at the same time - it was in the atmosphere. And you can say, ``Yes, it was luck.'' On the other hand you can say, ``But why of all the people in Bell Labs then were those the two who did it?'' Yes, it is partly luck, and partly it is the prepared mind; but `partly' is the other thing I'm going to talk about. So, although I'll come back several more times to luck, I want to dispose of this matter of luck as being the sole criterion whether you do great work or not. I claim you have some, but not total, control over it. And I will quote, finally, Newton on the matter. Newton said, ``If others would think as hard as I did, then they would get similar results.''

One of the characteristics you see, and many people have it including great scientists, is that usually when they were young they had independent thoughts and had the courage to pursue them. For example, Einstein, somewhere around 12 or 14, asked himself the question, ``What would a light wave look like if I went with the velocity of light to look at it?'' Now he knew that electromagnetic theory says you cannot have a stationary local maximum. But if he moved along with the velocity of light, he would see a local maximum. He could see a contradiction at the age of 12, 14, or somewhere around there, that everything was not right and that the velocity of light had something peculiar. Is it luck that he finally created special relativity? Early on, he had laid down some of the pieces by thinking of the fragments. Now that's the necessary but not sufficient condition. All of these items I will talk about are both luck and not luck.

How about having lots of `brains?' It sounds good. Most of you in this room probably have more than enough brains to do first-class work. But great work is something else than mere brains. Brains are measured in various ways. In mathematics, theoretical physics, astrophysics, typically brains correlates to a great extent with the ability to manipulate symbols. And so the typical IQ test is apt to score them fairly high. On the other hand, in other fields it is something different. For example, Bill Pfann, the fellow who did zone melting, came into my office one day. He had this idea dimly in his mind about what he wanted and he had some equations. It was pretty clear to me that this man didn't know much mathematics and he wasn't really articulate. His problem seemed interesting so I took it home and did a little work. I finally showed him how to run computers so he could compute his own answers. I gave him the power to compute. He went ahead, with negligible recognition from his own department, but ultimately he has collected all the prizes in the field. Once he got well started, his shyness, his awkwardness, his inarticulateness, fell away and he became much more productive in many other ways. Certainly he became much more articulate.

And I can cite another person in the same way. I trust he isn't in the audience, i.e. a fellow named Clogston. I met him when I was working on a problem with John Pierce's group and I didn't think he had much. I asked my friends who had been with him at school, ``Was he like that in graduate school?'' ``Yes,'' they replied. Well I would have fired the fellow, but J. R. Pierce was smart and kept him on. Clogston finally did the Clogston cable. After that there was a steady stream of good ideas. One success brought him confidence and courage.

One of the characteristics of successful scientists is having courage. Once you get your courage up and believe that you can do important problems, then you can. If you think you can't, almost surely you are not going to. Courage is one of the things that Shannon had supremely. You have only to think of his major theorem. He wants to create a method of coding, but he doesn't know what to do so he makes a random code. Then he is stuck. And then he asks the impossible question, ``What would the average random code do?'' He then proves that the average code is arbitrarily good, and that therefore there must be at least one good code. Who but a man of infinite courage could have dared to think those thoughts? That is the characteristic of great scientists; they have courage. They will go forward under incredible circumstances; they think and continue to think.

Age is another factor which the physicists particularly worry about. They always are saying that you have got to do it when you are young or you will never do it. Einstein did things very early, and all the quantum mechanic fellows were disgustingly young when they did their best work. Most mathematicians, theoretical physicists, and astrophysicists do what we consider their best work when they are young. It is not that they don't do good work in their old age but what we value most is often what they did early. On the other hand, in music, politics and literature, often what we consider their best work was done late. I don't know how whatever field you are in fits this scale, but age has some effect.

But let me say why age seems to have the effect it does. In the first place if you do some good work you will find yourself on all kinds of committees and unable to do any more work. You may find yourself as I saw Brattain when he got a Nobel Prize. The day the prize was announced we all assembled in Arnold Auditorium; all three winners got up and made speeches. The third one, Brattain, practically with tears in his eyes, said, ``I know about this Nobel-Prize effect and I am not going to let it affect me; I am going to remain good old Walter Brattain.'' Well I said to myself, ``That is nice.'' But in a few weeks I saw it was affecting him. Now he could only work on great problems.

When you are famous it is hard to work on small problems. This is what did Shannon in. After information theory, what do you do for an encore? The great scientists often make this error. They fail to continue to plant the little acorns from which the mighty oak trees grow. They try to get the big thing right off. And that isn't the way things go. So that is another reason why you find that when you get early recognition it seems to sterilize you. In fact I will give you my favorite quotation of many years. The Institute for Advanced Study in Princeton, in my opinion, has ruined more good scientists than any institution has created, judged by what they did before they came and judged by what they did after. Not that they weren't good afterwards, but they were superb before they got there and were only good afterwards.

This brings up the subject, out of order perhaps, of working conditions. What most people think are the best working conditions, are not. Very clearly they are not because people are often most productive when working conditions are bad. One of the better times of the Cambridge Physical Laboratories was when they had practically shacks - they did some of the best physics ever.

I give you a story from my own private life. Early on it became evident to me that Bell Laboratories was not going to give me the conventional acre of programming people to program computing machines in absolute binary. It was clear they weren't going to. But that was the way everybody did it. I could go to the West Coast and get a job with the airplane companies without any trouble, but the exciting people were at Bell Labs and the fellows out there in the airplane companies were not. I thought for a long while about, ``Did I want to go or not?'' and I wondered how I could get the best of two possible worlds. I finally said to myself, ``Hamming, you think the machines can do practically everything. Why can't you make them write programs?'' What appeared at first to me as a defect forced me into automatic programming very early. What appears to be a fault, often, by a change of viewpoint, turns out to be one of the greatest assets you can have. But you are not likely to think that when you first look the thing and say, ``Gee, I'm never going to get enough programmers, so how can I ever do any great programming?''

And there are many other stories of the same kind; Grace Hopper has similar ones. I think that if you look carefully you will see that often the great scientists, by turning the problem around a bit, changed a defect to an asset. For example, many scientists when they found they couldn't do a problem finally began to study why not. They then turned it around the other way and said, ``But of course, this is what it is'' and got an important result. So ideal working conditions are very strange. The ones you want aren't always the best ones for you.

Now for the matter of drive. You observe that most great scientists have tremendous drive. I worked for ten years with John Tukey at Bell Labs. He had tremendous drive. One day about three or four years after I joined, I discovered that John Tukey was slightly younger than I was. John was a genius and I clearly was not. Well I went storming into Bode's office and said, ``How can anybody my age know as much as John Tukey does?'' He leaned back in his chair, put his hands behind his head, grinned slightly, and said, ``You would be surprised Hamming, how much you would know if you worked as hard as he did that many years.'' I simply slunk out of the office!

What Bode was saying was this: ``Knowledge and productivity are like compound interest.'' Given two people of approximately the same ability and one person who works ten percent more than the other, the latter will more than twice outproduce the former. The more you know, the more you learn; the more you learn, the more you can do; the more you can do, the more the opportunity - it is very much like compound interest. I don't want to give you a rate, but it is a very high rate. Given two people with exactly the same ability, the one person who manages day in and day out to get in one more hour of thinking will be tremendously more productive over a lifetime. I took Bode's remark to heart; I spent a good deal more of my time for some years trying to work a bit harder and I found, in fact, I could get more work done. I don't like to say it in front of my wife, but I did sort of neglect her sometimes; I needed to study. You have to neglect things if you intend to get what you want done. There's no question about this.

On this matter of drive Edison says, ``Genius is 99% perspiration and 1% inspiration.'' He may have been exaggerating, but the idea is that solid work, steadily applied, gets you surprisingly far. The steady application of effort with a little bit more work, intelligently applied is what does it. That's the trouble; drive, misapplied, doesn't get you anywhere. I've often wondered why so many of my good friends at Bell Labs who worked as hard or harder than I did, didn't have so much to show for it. The misapplication of effort is a very serious matter. Just hard work is not enough - it must be applied sensibly.

There's another trait on the side which I want to talk about; that trait is ambiguity. It took me a while to discover its importance. Most people like to believe something is or is not true. Great scientists tolerate ambiguity very well. They believe the theory enough to go ahead; they doubt it enough to notice the errors and faults so they can step forward and create the new replacement theory. If you believe too much you'll never notice the flaws; if you doubt too much you won't get started. It requires a lovely balance. But most great scientists are well aware of why their theories are true and they are also well aware of some slight misfits which don't quite fit and they don't forget it. Darwin writes in his autobiography that he found it necessary to write down every piece of evidence which appeared to contradict his beliefs because otherwise they would disappear from his mind. When you find apparent flaws you've got to be sensitive and keep track of those things, and keep an eye out for how they can be explained or how the theory can be changed to fit them. Those are often the great contributions. Great contributions are rarely done by adding another decimal place. It comes down to an emotional commitment. Most great scientists are completely committed to their problem. Those who don't become committed seldom produce outstanding, first-class work.

Now again, emotional commitment is not enough. It is a necessary condition apparently. And I think I can tell you the reason why. Everybody who has studied creativity is driven finally to saying, ``creativity comes out of your subconscious.'' Somehow, suddenly, there it is. It just appears. Well, we know very little about the subconscious; but one thing you are pretty well aware of is that your dreams also come out of your subconscious. And you're aware your dreams are, to a fair extent, a reworking of the experiences of the day. If you are deeply immersed and committed to a topic, day after day after day, your subconscious has nothing to do but work on your problem. And so you wake up one morning, or on some afternoon, and there's the answer. For those who don't get committed to their current problem, the subconscious goofs off on other things and doesn't produce the big result. So the way to manage yourself is that when you have a real important problem you don't let anything else get the center of your attention - you keep your thoughts on the problem. Keep your subconscious starved so it has to work on your problem, so you can sleep peacefully and get the answer in the morning, free.

Now Alan Chynoweth mentioned that I used to eat at the physics table. I had been eating with the mathematicians and I found out that I already knew a fair amount of mathematics; in fact, I wasn't learning much. The physics table was, as he said, an exciting place, but I think he exaggerated on how much I contributed. It was very interesting to listen to Shockley, Brattain, Bardeen, J. B. Johnson, Ken McKay and other people, and I was learning a lot. But unfortunately a Nobel Prize came, and a promotion came, and what was left was the dregs. Nobody wanted what was left. Well, there was no use eating with them!

Over on the other side of the dining hall was a chemistry table. I had worked with one of the fellows, Dave McCall; furthermore he was courting our secretary at the time. I went over and said, ``Do you mind if I join you?'' They can't say no, so I started eating with them for a while. And I started asking, ``What are the important problems of your field?'' And after a week or so, ``What important problems are you working on?'' And after some more time I came in one day and said, ``If what you are doing is not important, and if you don't think it is going to lead to something important, why are you at Bell Labs working on it?'' I wasn't welcomed after that; I had to find somebody else to eat with! That was in the spring.

In the fall, Dave McCall stopped me in the hall and said, ``Hamming, that remark of yours got underneath my skin. I thought about it all summer, i.e. what were the important problems in my field. I haven't changed my research,'' he says, ``but I think it was well worthwhile.'' And I said, ``Thank you Dave,'' and went on. I noticed a couple of months later he was made the head of the department. I noticed the other day he was a Member of the National Academy of Engineering. I noticed he has succeeded. I have never heard the names of any of the other fellows at that table mentioned in science and scientific circles. They were unable to ask themselves, ``What are the important problems in my field?''

If you do not work on an important problem, it's unlikely you'll do important work. It's perfectly obvious. Great scientists have thought through, in a careful way, a number of important problems in their field, and they keep an eye on wondering how to attack them. Let me warn you, `important problem' must be phrased carefully. The three outstanding problems in physics, in a certain sense, were never worked on while I was at Bell Labs. By important I mean guaranteed a Nobel Prize and any sum of money you want to mention. We didn't work on (1) time travel, (2) teleportation, and (3) antigravity. They are not important problems because we do not have an attack. It's not the consequence that makes a problem important, it is that you have a reasonable attack. That is what makes a problem important. When I say that most scientists don't work on important problems, I mean it in that sense. The average scientist, so far as I can make out, spends almost all his time working on problems which he believes will not be important and he also doesn't believe that they will lead to important problems.

I spoke earlier about planting acorns so that oaks will grow. You can't always know exactly where to be, but you can keep active in places where something might happen. And even if you believe that great science is a matter of luck, you can stand on a mountain top where lightning strikes; you don't have to hide in the valley where you're safe. But the average scientist does routine safe work almost all the time and so he (or she) doesn't produce much. It's that simple. If you want to do great work, you clearly must work on important problems, and you should have an idea.

Along those lines at some urging from John Tukey and others, I finally adopted what I called ``Great Thoughts Time.'' When I went to lunch Friday noon, I would only discuss great thoughts after that. By great thoughts I mean ones like: ``What will be the role of computers in all of AT&T?'', ``How will computers change science?'' For example, I came up with the observation at that time that nine out of ten experiments were done in the lab and one in ten on the computer. I made a remark to the vice presidents one time, that it would be reversed, i.e. nine out of ten experiments would be done on the computer and one in ten in the lab. They knew I was a crazy mathematician and had no sense of reality. I knew they were wrong and they've been proved wrong while I have been proved right. They built laboratories when they didn't need them. I saw that computers were transforming science because I spent a lot of time asking ``What will be the impact of computers on science and how can I change it?'' I asked myself, ``How is it going to change Bell Labs?'' I remarked one time, in the same address, that more than one-half of the people at Bell Labs will be interacting closely with computing machines before I leave. Well, you all have terminals now. I thought hard about where was my field going, where were the opportunities, and what were the important things to do. Let me go there so there is a chance I can do important things.

Most great scientists know many important problems. They have something between 10 and 20 important problems for which they are looking for an attack. And when they see a new idea come up, one hears them say ``Well that bears on this problem.'' They drop all the other things and get after it. Now I can tell you a horror story that was told to me but I can't vouch for the truth of it. I was sitting in an airport talking to a friend of mine from Los Alamos about how it was lucky that the fission experiment occurred over in Europe when it did because that got us working on the atomic bomb here in the US. He said ``No; at Berkeley we had gathered a bunch of data; we didn't get around to reducing it because we were building some more equipment, but if we had reduced that data we would have found fission.'' They had it in their hands and they didn't pursue it. They came in second!

The great scientists, when an opportunity opens up, get after it and they pursue it. They drop all other things. They get rid of other things and they get after an idea because they had already thought the thing through. Their minds are prepared; they see the opportunity and they go after it. Now of course lots of times it doesn't work out, but you don't have to hit many of them to do some great science. It's kind of easy. One of the chief tricks is to live a long time!

Another trait, it took me a while to notice. I noticed the following facts about people who work with the door open or the door closed. I notice that if you have the door to your office closed, you get more work done today and tomorrow, and you are more productive than most. But 10 years later somehow you don't know quite know what problems are worth working on; all the hard work you do is sort of tangential in importance. He who works with the door open gets all kinds of interruptions, but he also occasionally gets clues as to what the world is and what might be important. Now I cannot prove the cause and effect sequence because you might say, ``The closed door is symbolic of a closed mind.'' I don't know. But I can say there is a pretty good correlation between those who work with the doors open and those who ultimately do important things, although people who work with doors closed often work harder. Somehow they seem to work on slightly the wrong thing - not much, but enough that they miss fame.

I want to talk on another topic. It is based on the song which I think many of you know, ``It ain't what you do, it's the way that you do it.'' I'll start with an example of my own. I was conned into doing on a digital computer, in the absolute binary days, a problem which the best analog computers couldn't do. And I was getting an answer. When I thought carefully and said to myself, ``You know, Hamming, you're going to have to file a report on this military job; after you spend a lot of money you're going to have to account for it and every analog installation is going to want the report to see if they can't find flaws in it.'' I was doing the required integration by a rather crummy method, to say the least, but I was getting the answer. And I realized that in truth the problem was not just to get the answer; it was to demonstrate for the first time, and beyond question, that I could beat the analog computer on its own ground with a digital machine. I reworked the method of solution, created a theory which was nice and elegant, and changed the way we computed the answer; the results were no different. The published report had an elegant method which was later known for years as ``Hamming's Method of Integrating Differential Equations.'' It is somewhat obsolete now, but for a while it was a very good method. By changing the problem slightly, I did important work rather than trivial work.

In the same way, when using the machine up in the attic in the early days, I was solving one problem after another after another; a fair number were successful and there were a few failures. I went home one Friday after finishing a problem, and curiously enough I wasn't happy; I was depressed. I could see life being a long sequence of one problem after another after another. After quite a while of thinking I decided, ``No, I should be in the mass production of a variable product. I should be concerned with all of next year's problems, not just the one in front of my face.'' By changing the question I still got the same kind of results or better, but I changed things and did important work. I attacked the major problem - How do I conquer machines and do all of next year's problems when I don't know what they are going to be? How do I prepare for it? How do I do this one so I'll be on top of it? How do I obey Newton's rule? He said, ``If I have seen further than others, it is because I've stood on the shoulders of giants.'' These days we stand on each other's feet!

You should do your job in such a fashion that others can build on top of it, so they will indeed say, ``Yes, I've stood on so and so's shoulders and I saw further.'' The essence of science is cumulative. By changing a problem slightly you can often do great work rather than merely good work. Instead of attacking isolated problems, I made the resolution that I would never again solve an isolated problem except as characteristic of a class.

Now if you are much of a mathematician you know that the effort to generalize often means that the solution is simple. Often by stopping and saying, ``This is the problem he wants but this is characteristic of so and so. Yes, I can attack the whole class with a far superior method than the particular one because I was earlier embedded in needless detail.'' The business of abstraction frequently makes things simple. Furthermore, I filed away the methods and prepared for the future problems.

To end this part, I'll remind you, ``It is a poor workman who blames his tools - the good man gets on with the job, given what he's got, and gets the best answer he can.'' And I suggest that by altering the problem, by looking at the thing differently, you can make a great deal of difference in your final productivity because you can either do it in such a fashion that people can indeed build on what you've done, or you can do it in such a fashion that the next person has to essentially duplicate again what you've done. It isn't just a matter of the job, it's the way you write the report, the way you write the paper, the whole attitude. It's just as easy to do a broad, general job as one very special case. And it's much more satisfying and rewarding!

I have now come down to a topic which is very distasteful; it is not sufficient to do a job, you have to sell it. `Selling' to a scientist is an awkward thing to do. It's very ugly; you shouldn't have to do it. The world is supposed to be waiting, and when you do something great, they should rush out and welcome it. But the fact is everyone is busy with their own work. You must present it so well that they will set aside what they are doing, look at what you've done, read it, and come back and say, ``Yes, that was good.'' I suggest that when you open a journal, as you turn the pages, you ask why you read some articles and not others. You had better write your report so when it is published in the Physical Review, or wherever else you want it, as the readers are turning the pages they won't just turn your pages but they will stop and read yours. If they don't stop and read it, you won't get credit.

There are three things you have to do in selling. You have to learn to write clearly and well so that people will read it, you must learn to give reasonably formal talks, and you also must learn to give informal talks. We had a lot of so-called `back room scientists.' In a conference, they would keep quiet. Three weeks later after a decision was made they filed a report saying why you should do so and so. Well, it was too late. They would not stand up right in the middle of a hot conference, in the middle of activity, and say, ``We should do this for these reasons.'' You need to master that form of communication as well as prepared speeches.

When I first started, I got practically physically ill while giving a speech, and I was very, very nervous. I realized I either had to learn to give speeches smoothly or I would essentially partially cripple my whole career. The first time IBM asked me to give a speech in New York one evening, I decided I was going to give a really good speech, a speech that was wanted, not a technical one but a broad one, and at the end if they liked it, I'd quietly say, ``Any time you want one I'll come in and give you one.'' As a result, I got a great deal of practice giving speeches to a limited audience and I got over being afraid. Furthermore, I could also then study what methods were effective and what were ineffective.

While going to meetings I had already been studying why some papers are remembered and most are not. The technical person wants to give a highly limited technical talk. Most of the time the audience wants a broad general talk and wants much more survey and background than the speaker is willing to give. As a result, many talks are ineffective. The speaker names a topic and suddenly plunges into the details he's solved. Few people in the audience may follow. You should paint a general picture to say why it's important, and then slowly give a sketch of what was done. Then a larger number of people will say, ``Yes, Joe has done that,'' or ``Mary has done that; I really see where it is; yes, Mary really gave a good talk; I understand what Mary has done.'' The tendency is to give a highly restricted, safe talk; this is usually ineffective. Furthermore, many talks are filled with far too much information. So I say this idea of selling is obvious.

Let me summarize. You've got to work on important problems. I deny that it is all luck, but I admit there is a fair element of luck. I subscribe to Pasteur's ``Luck favors the prepared mind.'' I favor heavily what I did. Friday afternoons for years - great thoughts only - means that I committed 10% of my time trying to understand the bigger problems in the field, i.e. what was and what was not important. I found in the early days I had believed `this' and yet had spent all week marching in `that' direction. It was kind of foolish. If I really believe the action is over there, why do I march in this direction? I either had to change my goal or change what I did. So I changed something I did and I marched in the direction I thought was important. It's that easy.

Now you might tell me you haven't got control over what you have to work on. Well, when you first begin, you may not. But once you're moderately successful, there are more people asking for results than you can deliver and you have some power of choice, but not completely. I'll tell you a story about that, and it bears on the subject of educating your boss. I had a boss named Schelkunoff; he was, and still is, a very good friend of mine. Some military person came to me and demanded some answers by Friday. Well, I had already dedicated my computing resources to reducing data on the fly for a group of scientists; I was knee deep in short, small, important problems. This military person wanted me to solve his problem by the end of the day on Friday. I said, ``No, I'll give it to you Monday. I can work on it over the weekend. I'm not going to do it now.'' He goes down to my boss, Schelkunoff, and Schelkunoff says, ``You must run this for him; he's got to have it by Friday.'' I tell him, ``Why do I?''; he says, ``You have to.'' I said, ``Fine, Sergei, but you're sitting in your office Friday afternoon catching the late bus home to watch as this fellow walks out that door.'' I gave the military person the answers late Friday afternoon. I then went to Schelkunoff's office and sat down; as the man goes out I say, ``You see Schelkunoff, this fellow has nothing under his arm; but I gave him the answers.'' On Monday morning Schelkunoff called him up and said, ``Did you come in to work over the weekend?'' I could hear, as it were, a pause as the fellow ran through his mind of what was going to happen; but he knew he would have had to sign in, and he'd better not say he had when he hadn't, so he said he hadn't. Ever after that Schelkunoff said, ``You set your deadlines; you can change them.''

One lesson was sufficient to educate my boss as to why I didn't want to do big jobs that displaced exploratory research and why I was justified in not doing crash jobs which absorb all the research computing facilities. I wanted instead to use the facilities to compute a large number of small problems. Again, in the early days, I was limited in computing capacity and it was clear, in my area, that a ``mathematician had no use for machines.'' But I needed more machine capacity. Every time I had to tell some scientist in some other area, ``No I can't; I haven't the machine capacity,'' he complained. I said ``Go tell your Vice President that Hamming needs more computing capacity.'' After a while I could see what was happening up there at the top; many people said to my Vice President, ``Your man needs more computing capacity.'' I got it!

I also did a second thing. When I loaned what little programming power we had to help in the early days of computing, I said, ``We are not getting the recognition for our programmers that they deserve. When you publish a paper you will thank that programmer or you aren't getting any more help from me. That programmer is going to be thanked by name; she's worked hard.'' I waited a couple of years. I then went through a year of BSTJ articles and counted what fraction thanked some programmer. I took it into the boss and said, ``That's the central role computing is playing in Bell Labs; if the BSTJ is important, that's how important computing is.'' He had to give in. You can educate your bosses. It's a hard job. In this talk I'm only viewing from the bottom up; I'm not viewing from the top down. But I am telling you how you can get what you want in spite of top management. You have to sell your ideas there also.

Well I now come down to the topic, ``Is the effort to be a great scientist worth it?'' To answer this, you must ask people. When you get beyond their modesty, most people will say, ``Yes, doing really first-class work, and knowing it, is as good as wine, women and song put together,'' or if it's a woman she says, ``It is as good as wine, men and song put together.'' And if you look at the bosses, they tend to come back or ask for reports, trying to participate in those moments of discovery. They're always in the way. So evidently those who have done it, want to do it again. But it is a limited survey. I have never dared to go out and ask those who didn't do great work how they felt about the matter. It's a biased sample, but I still think it is worth the struggle. I think it is very definitely worth the struggle to try and do first-class work because the truth is, the value is in the struggle more than it is in the result. The struggle to make something of yourself seems to be worthwhile in itself. The success and fame are sort of dividends, in my opinion.

I've told you how to do it. It is so easy, so why do so many people, with all their talents, fail? For example, my opinion, to this day, is that there are in the mathematics department at Bell Labs quite a few people far more able and far better endowed than I, but they didn't produce as much. Some of them did produce more than I did; Shannon produced more than I did, and some others produced a lot, but I was highly productive against a lot of other fellows who were better equipped. Why is it so? What happened to them? Why do so many of the people who have great promise, fail?

Well, one of the reasons is drive and commitment. The people who do great work with less ability but who are committed to it, get more done that those who have great skill and dabble in it, who work during the day and go home and do other things and come back and work the next day. They don't have the deep commitment that is apparently necessary for really first-class work. They turn out lots of good work, but we were talking, remember, about first-class work. There is a difference. Good people, very talented people, almost always turn out good work. We're talking about the outstanding work, the type of work that gets the Nobel Prize and gets recognition.

The second thing is, I think, the problem of personality defects. Now I'll cite a fellow whom I met out in Irvine. He had been the head of a computing center and he was temporarily on assignment as a special assistant to the president of the university. It was obvious he had a job with a great future. He took me into his office one time and showed me his method of getting letters done and how he took care of his correspondence. He pointed out how inefficient the secretary was. He kept all his letters stacked around there; he knew where everything was. And he would, on his word processor, get the letter out. He was bragging how marvelous it was and how he could get so much more work done without the secretary's interference. Well, behind his back, I talked to the secretary. The secretary said, ``Of course I can't help him; I don't get his mail. He won't give me the stuff to log in; I don't know where he puts it on the floor. Of course I can't help him.'' So I went to him and said, ``Look, if you adopt the present method and do what you can do single-handedly, you can go just that far and no farther than you can do single-handedly. If you will learn to work with the system, you can go as far as the system will support you.'' And, he never went any further. He had his personality defect of wanting total control and was not willing to recognize that you need the support of the system.

You find this happening again and again; good scientists will fight the system rather than learn to work with the system and take advantage of all the system has to offer. It has a lot, if you learn how to use it. It takes patience, but you can learn how to use the system pretty well, and you can learn how to get around it. After all, if you want a decision `No', you just go to your boss and get a `No' easy. If you want to do something, don't ask, do it. Present him with an accomplished fact. Don't give him a chance to tell you `No'. But if you want a `No', it's easy to get a `No'.

Another personality defect is ego assertion and I'll speak in this case of my own experience. I came from Los Alamos and in the early days I was using a machine in New York at 590 Madison Avenue where we merely rented time. I was still dressing in western clothes, big slash pockets, a bolo and all those things. I vaguely noticed that I was not getting as good service as other people. So I set out to measure. You came in and you waited for your turn; I felt I was not getting a fair deal. I said to myself, ``Why? No Vice President at IBM said, `Give Hamming a bad time'. It is the secretaries at the bottom who are doing this. When a slot appears, they'll rush to find someone to slip in, but they go out and find somebody else. Now, why? I haven't mistreated them.'' Answer, I wasn't dressing the way they felt somebody in that situation should. It came down to just that - I wasn't dressing properly. I had to make the decision - was I going to assert my ego and dress the way I wanted to and have it steadily drain my effort from my professional life, or was I going to appear to conform better? I decided I would make an effort to appear to conform properly. The moment I did, I got much better service. And now, as an old colorful character, I get better service than other people.

You should dress according to the expectations of the audience spoken to. If I am going to give an address at the MIT computer center, I dress with a bolo and an old corduroy jacket or something else. I know enough not to let my clothes, my appearance, my manners get in the way of what I care about. An enormous number of scientists feel they must assert their ego and do their thing their way. They have got to be able to do this, that, or the other thing, and they pay a steady price.

John Tukey almost always dressed very casually. He would go into an important office and it would take a long time before the other fellow realized that this is a first-class man and he had better listen. For a long time John has had to overcome this kind of hostility. It's wasted effort! I didn't say you should conform; I said ``The appearance of conforming gets you a long way.'' If you chose to assert your ego in any number of ways, ``I am going to do it my way,'' you pay a small steady price throughout the whole of your professional career. And this, over a whole lifetime, adds up to an enormous amount of needless trouble.

By taking the trouble to tell jokes to the secretaries and being a little friendly, I got superb secretarial help. For instance, one time for some idiot reason all the reproducing services at Murray Hill were tied up. Don't ask me how, but they were. I wanted something done. My secretary called up somebody at Holmdel, hopped the company car, made the hour-long trip down and got it reproduced, and then came back. It was a payoff for the times I had made an effort to cheer her up, tell her jokes and be friendly; it was that little extra work that later paid off for me. By realizing you have to use the system and studying how to get the system to do your work, you learn how to adapt the system to your desires. Or you can fight it steadily, as a small undeclared war, for the whole of your life.

And I think John Tukey paid a terrible price needlessly. He was a genius anyhow, but I think it would have been far better, and far simpler, had he been willing to conform a little bit instead of ego asserting. He is going to dress the way he wants all of the time. It applies not only to dress but to a thousand other things; people will continue to fight the system. Not that you shouldn't occasionally!

When they moved the library from the middle of Murray Hill to the far end, a friend of mine put in a request for a bicycle. Well, the organization was not dumb. They waited awhile and sent back a map of the grounds saying, ``Will you please indicate on this map what paths you are going to take so we can get an insurance policy covering you.'' A few more weeks went by. They then asked, ``Where are you going to store the bicycle and how will it be locked so we can do so and so.'' He finally realized that of course he was going to be red-taped to death so he gave in. He rose to be the President of Bell Laboratories.

Barney Oliver was a good man. He wrote a letter one time to the IEEE. At that time the official shelf space at Bell Labs was so much and the height of the IEEE Proceedings at that time was larger; and since you couldn't change the size of the official shelf space he wrote this letter to the IEEE Publication person saying, ``Since so many IEEE members were at Bell Labs and since the official space was so high the journal size should be changed.'' He sent it for his boss's signature. Back came a carbon with his signature, but he still doesn't know whether the original was sent or not. I am not saying you shouldn't make gestures of reform. I am saying that my study of able people is that they don't get themselves committed to that kind of warfare. They play it a little bit and drop it and get on with their work.

Many a second-rate fellow gets caught up in some little twitting of the system, and carries it through to warfare. He expends his energy in a foolish project. Now you are going to tell me that somebody has to change the system. I agree; somebody's has to. Which do you want to be? The person who changes the system or the person who does first-class science? Which person is it that you want to be? Be clear, when you fight the system and struggle with it, what you are doing, how far to go out of amusement, and how much to waste your effort fighting the system. My advice is to let somebody else do it and you get on with becoming a first-class scientist. Very few of you have the ability to both reform the system and become a first-class scientist.

On the other hand, we can't always give in. There are times when a certain amount of rebellion is sensible. I have observed almost all scientists enjoy a certain amount of twitting the system for the sheer love of it. What it comes down to basically is that you cannot be original in one area without having originality in others. Originality is being different. You can't be an original scientist without having some other original characteristics. But many a scientist has let his quirks in other places make him pay a far higher price than is necessary for the ego satisfaction he or she gets. I'm not against all ego assertion; I'm against some.

Another fault is anger. Often a scientist becomes angry, and this is no way to handle things. Amusement, yes, anger, no. Anger is misdirected. You should follow and cooperate rather than struggle against the system all the time.

Another thing you should look for is the positive side of things instead of the negative. I have already given you several examples, and there are many, many more; how, given the situation, by changing the way I looked at it, I converted what was apparently a defect to an asset. I'll give you another example. I am an egotistical person; there is no doubt about it. I knew that most people who took a sabbatical to write a book, didn't finish it on time. So before I left, I told all my friends that when I come back, that book was going to be done! Yes, I would have it done - I'd have been ashamed to come back without it! I used my ego to make myself behave the way I wanted to. I bragged about something so I'd have to perform. I found out many times, like a cornered rat in a real trap, I was surprisingly capable. I have found that it paid to say, ``Oh yes, I'll get the answer for you Tuesday,'' not having any idea how to do it. By Sunday night I was really hard thinking on how I was going to deliver by Tuesday. I often put my pride on the line and sometimes I failed, but as I said, like a cornered rat I'm surprised how often I did a good job. I think you need to learn to use yourself. I think you need to know how to convert a situation from one view to another which would increase the chance of success.

Now self-delusion in humans is very, very common. There are enumerable ways of you changing a thing and kidding yourself and making it look some other way. When you ask, ``Why didn't you do such and such,'' the person has a thousand alibis. If you look at the history of science, usually these days there are 10 people right there ready, and we pay off for the person who is there first. The other nine fellows say, ``Well, I had the idea but I didn't do it and so on and so on.'' There are so many alibis. Why weren't you first? Why didn't you do it right? Don't try an alibi. Don't try and kid yourself. You can tell other people all the alibis you want. I don't mind. But to yourself try to be honest.

If you really want to be a first-class scientist you need to know yourself, your weaknesses, your strengths, and your bad faults, like my egotism. How can you convert a fault to an asset? How can you convert a situation where you haven't got enough manpower to move into a direction when that's exactly what you need to do? I say again that I have seen, as I studied the history, the successful scientist changed the viewpoint and what was a defect became an asset.

In summary, I claim that some of the reasons why so many people who have greatness within their grasp don't succeed are: they don't work on important problems, they don't become emotionally involved, they don't try and change what is difficult to some other situation which is easily done but is still important, and they keep giving themselves alibis why they don't. They keep saying that it is a matter of luck. I've told you how easy it is; furthermore I've told you how to reform. Therefore, go forth and become great scientists!

(End of the formal part of the talk.)









05 febrero

Happy New Year

I have a dream that all my friends at work will find their ways to earn big money in 贰零零捌 !
I have a dream that all my friends at school will do great research in 贰零零捌 !
I have a dream that all my friends w/o a job will find their best future direction in 贰零零捌 !
I have a dream that all my friends w/o the other significant-half will be shot by Cupid in 贰零零捌 !
I have a dream that all my friends w/ the other significant-half will continue bathing in love( and NOT be shot by Cupid again Wink) in 贰零零捌 !
I have a dream that all my friends who don't quite know the purpose of life will become smarter in 贰零零捌 !
I have a dream that all my friends who reply this entry will have a wonderful future, NOT only in
贰零零捌, but also in 贰零零玖 ! Open-mouthed

This is our hope...


14 noviembre

被ZMJ点名

无缘无故看到HMJ被点名了,还是被ZMJ点的,有点幸灾乐祸. 等我连到ZMJ博客上一看, 竟然有我的名字, 还是被特别PS的...
 
 
1 你不喜欢怎样的人? 
  内双... 
 
   ZMJ: 说一套做一套
    评: 地球人都不喜欢好伐~
   HMJ: 长得不好看的人。尤其是脸上长痔,痔上长毛的。^_^!(准备被拍砖)
    评: 当心,嘉定到杭州还是很近的
 
 
2 当你看到你最想见又不能见的人该怎么办?
  逻辑bug: 我想见+对方不反感+我还能自由活动 --> 能见着, 这和“不能见”没有交集......
  
 
3 你和你喜欢的人在一起话多么? 
  她比较多
  
 
4 你怎么知道自己喜欢一个人?
  感觉很对,长时间后会感觉会越来越浓,看到的更多是对方的优点,而不是缺点。(长了点,:) )

   HMJ: 能从她眼里看见我眼睛的光。很拗口?看不懂就自己回去补习语文!
    评: 就不能写些大哥能参与的题目?!
   ZMJ: 睡觉前会想起,想起就想微笑
    评: 睡着了就会想起,想起就会微笑。 这不是更吊?!
 

5 最让你自鸣得意的优点是?
  既然都引到“眼皮”的话题上了,为了保持一致,我的回答是:很明显的双眼皮

   HMJ: 双眼皮,比某些人的内双,好看多了!
    评: 第一眼看成了“内江”...
   ZMJ: 内双,哈哈
    评: 还“哈哈”,吐了一个...
 

6 现在生活最缺乏什么?
  风险,希望能在年轻的时候多经历一些。
 
   HMJ: 脑细胞,感觉怎么也把大脑更多的功能开发不出来,难道是智障?
    评: 也有可能是反射弧太长了,更有可能两者都有。太恐怖了
   ZMJ: 时间
    评: 每个人都是24*7,要看怎么用了。

 
7 现阶段最大的愿望是什么?
  我不能亲手实现的:世界和平; 我能做到的:做好下周的土豆牛肉
 
   HMJ: 我的项目啊。全部都给我中标啊!
    评: 套用607的一句话: hsmywgw

 
8 你觉得10年内自己会到另一个城市生活吗?如果会,是哪里?
  应该会。有很多因素决定,但如果要我说,我希望那时已经成熟到回国的地步了...
 

9 最近最郁闷的事?
  有几个可以并列的:1. 车sensor wire被松鼠咬坏了; 2. Arsenal 没把 manu 拿下; 3. Colts 输给 Patriot ...
 
   HMJ: 我们公会好垃圾,开个KLZ都没人。
   ZMJ: 发一封邮件写了半小时,期间接了5-6个电话
    评: 看来你们最近生活都挺好的。
 

10 你最想去哪个地方?为什么?
  有时候会觉得很想突然回到好地方台球室,看着大哥一边叫嚣,一边进白球。
  
  HMJ: 泰山,背她上泰山,前20年最后一个没有完成的愿望了。觉得很弱智?我选择我喜欢!
    评: 你那半场足球赛的体力... ...
 

11 最受不了自己的哪个缺点?
  爱乱想,但也满足于现有的。
  
   HMJ: 偏执
    评: 是“骗子”
 

12 你难过的时候最先想到谁?
  自己安静的想想。
  
   HMJ: 我妈。怎么还不给老子炖碗鸡汤咧?
    评: 她应该是在打麻将吧
   ZMJ: 最想下雨,静静的在雨中漫步
    评: 打伞么? 我们都很忙,你可以找大哥陪你。
 

13 你的人生目标是什么?
  这个问题我竟然想不出了,看来要把第11题改成“没有人生目标”了......
   
 
14 遇到不开心的事情,你会怎么释放自己的心情?
  目前还没有,有也记不起来了。
 
   ZMJ: 睡觉
    评: 我证明他没说谎。
   
 
15 你最爱的人是怎么样的?
  现在就在我左边的机器上做SAS作业。  注意!不是SA,是SAS。
  
  HMJ: 贤惠、上进、独立,当然最好是漂亮的。 
    评: 看来顺序和五年前的正好反过来
 

16 有什么事会让你不顾一切?
  父母,爱人,朋友...有很多。 这都是给过我“一切”的人。
  

17 今年圣诞怎么过?
  往南边飞的票都准备好了,退不了阿~
   

18 你现在有想跟他/她一辈子的人吗?
  有。

 
19 哪个日子对你最有纪念意义?
  目前还是10.1
   HMJ: 6.28? 忘记比较好。
    评: 怎么不是517?
 

20 开心的时候最想和谁分享?
  她,他们。

 
21 看过NANA吗? 喜欢哪一个NANA? / 没看过的人请回答: 最希望有DORAEMON百宝袋里的哪一样东西?
  想要他的豆包,呵呵~
   
 
22 会选择哪种自杀方式来结束生命?
  绝对不会。
 
23 最喜欢哪部动画片?
  不知道么么蛙绿茶算不算?
  
   HMJ: 猫和老鼠?
    评: 是四川话版的么?
   ZMJ: Bleach
    评: 应该是comic上的吧。
 

24 你觉得,恋爱开始的仪式是啥?
  心相通。
   
 
25 准备甚么时候结婚?请具体到月
  这个...应该是在中共十八大之前吧 :)
  
   HMJ: 明年10月,或者3年后的10月?什么时候买了Lamborghini就什么时候!
    评: 这三者应该都是同一个人吧...
24 julio

我相信

他们说世界太寂寞 为爱付出一切 只换来眼泪
花儿开 花又谢 转眼一场空
我承认留不住天真 但冷漠的人间 仍有温暖的安慰
感动我 鼓励我 珍惜我所有

我相信上帝的悲悯 母亲的眼泪 孩子的眼睛
沉默的谦卑 胜过世界喧嚷的骄傲
我相信 真心
我相信爱情的坚贞 守约的可贵 宽恕的美丽
无悔的奉献 点亮生命深藏的意义
喔 我相信 真爱常新
15 junio

变化

      去年刚出国的那阵子,还经常可以看见朋友写的回忆录。但慢慢的也就没人写了,大家都忙了。9个月后,我又回去看了看,见见老朋友,见见那些可以勾起我们回忆的地方。真美~
      黄mj还是老样子,以邋遢为美。有意无意的留着胡子,多了几分男人味。事业心膨胀,对自己更加有计划了,说是要建设杭州。在他看来中国最好的城市是杭州,最差的是抚州。腰椎间盘似乎也膨胀了一些...朱mj一身职场小白领的打扮,墨镜好像是换过的,原来是红色的。长期不练习,台球已经被大哥落下好多。看得出来他也无时无刻不在考虑自己的将来,这种迷茫所有年轻的人都会有的。他没戒烟...大哥似乎比以前更加有自信了,这是很危险的。也不知道他的那个老大是怎么带他的,真应该让我们去给他上上课。谈吐中可见他长大了不少,有很多自己的观点。还是具有那么神乎其技的台球杆法。听说最近只穿JJ的衣服...安子没变什么,从他的神情中隐约感觉到少了些许毕业时的豪情奔放,多了一点对现实的忧虑牵挂。说话做事还是大大咧咧的,很爽快。还是应该多花时间专注在学习上...林无要辍学了,不久就能见到他了,呵呵。还是抽着红双喜,但是看到中华还是不会放过的。希望他22号能顺利通过...曲X让我觉得最大的不同,就是bxmywgw说的少了,可能是没有和wg住在一起的缘故吧...华X还是巨牛,他还有蛋糕,伟哥,无机都考了G,大家都是身在曹营心在汉...猪头好像特别喜欢我给的那件Purdue的衣服,反正我见到他时他都穿那件,也不知道是不是为了套近乎。最近去做了一个眼部手术,听说还不是拉双眼皮,浪费哦...周扬自从上次在好地方台球后,便爱上了这项运动,在武汉也开发了打台球的地方,看的出来偷偷练过的,哈哈...
      只是一年不到的功夫,大家多多少少都有变化。很期待下次回去,大家又是什么样子。
     
PS:黄mj,在你开发杭州的空闲时间里,继续写回忆录啊!朱mj还在“持币观望”哦...
11 febrero

生日快乐

     虽然也参与过别人的surprise party,但是轮到自己的,到还真是挺吃惊的。宝宝,海昕和王晶早在一周之前就开始了精心的谋划,我是感觉到这一周内他们的行为举止都比较不正常,但也猜不出到底会发生什么,还以为又是网球拍呢...

     周五下午5点海昕就从学校接我去中国店,一直拖到6点多才回家。以前都是他抢在前面开门,但这次他让我先走上楼梯,开门。一进去就感觉不对劲——我的房门怎么会掩着呢。但已经没有时间让我思考了,迪第一个冲出来,拉响了彩跑,接着晓达,蔡博,大师,宇宙等都陆续出来了。虽然我预计到了这次surprise party,但是人员如此之多,安排如此之奇妙,这我还是没有想到的。

     后来从这次节目的总导演宝宝同学那里了解到,他们利用平时一切可以利用的时间,光是walmart就跑了好几趟,这可苦了刚开车但还不太认路的海昕同学了。还有王晶同学的糕点,也是花了好多精力的,以至于大家在火锅之前还有东西填肚子。

     这次活动得到了清华,交大,复旦,科大,浙大,武大,大连理工和福州大学等一系列全国名牌高等院校的若干同学的大力支持,汇集了计算金融数学,量子物理,工商管理,农业生物,食品工程,生物工程,信号图像处理,计算电磁场,超大规模集成电路,纳米器件仿真,微电子工艺,自动化控制,电力系统以及机械工程等许多重要学科未来的优秀学者。有了你们的支持和鼓励,我相信在purdue的日子会很有意义。真的很感谢大家,啥都不说了,直接来个 Orz !

     最后,我想今后会告诉我干儿子:你干嗲23岁生日那天,你也在场,加你正好23个人,哈哈~

01 febrero

天冷.杂记

     好像冬天最近才到来。这几天的温度都是零下十几度,有几天白天甚至达到了零下20度左右,在户外走仿佛就像有刀割在脸上一样,特别难受。

     之所以说冬天刚到,是因为最近才下了几场像样的雪,但剧烈程度都不能和去年11月的那场相比。现在几乎每周都会下雪,雪后就会在马路上撒化雪剂,它和雪水掺杂起来就成了像“泥”一样的东西,路上到处都是。小虫子在外面跑一圈回来后就粘的满身是“泥”,因为化雪剂里面有盐,还是有比较大的腐蚀性的。我比较心疼我家虫子,所以只要一看到身上有“泥”, 我就会去给它洗干净。这两周内已经洗了三次了。你说洗车就洗吧,还每次都被楼下住的那户美国人看到,怪丢人的,他们肯定想:原来这个经常看见的中国人是洗车行的啊,还以为住楼上呢...

     更甚者,每次洗完车,不出两天就下雪,一两次发生也就算了,这一连就是四,五次,让我已不再相信它是偶然事件了。哎,别再下雪了啊~~~~

     昨天我又去洗车了。那是一个寒风凛冽,室外温度只有零下15度的黄昏。我拎了一桶热水,拿了一块海绵,借着我家车位边的昏暗的路灯光就开洗了。温度太低了,当我洗完左边后去擦右车身时,发现左车身已经结冰了。在洗的过程中,我发现我必须两个手换着拿海绵,才不会让闲着的那个手冻着。最悲哀的是,当我把后车厢打开擦里面的玻璃时,那里的空间结构只允许我用右手擦,左手得一直撑着后盖。弄完后我的左手已经冻得和×蹄一样胖了,放进那桶热水里得感觉真×××太爽了,已经管不上那水有多脏了。

     在洗车的时候,从我身边经过的人都以异样的眼神看着我,当然还有楼下那对美国夫妇。洗完后,拎起桶,我就往回狂奔。

     吃完晚饭出去自习,把车打着火,挂倒档松开刹车。奇怪车怎么动都不动?坏了?都说德国车小毛病多。加了一脚油门,只听见一声破冰的“嘎吱”声。昏,原来是轮胎被刚才洗车的水给冻在地上了。

     当天晚上就下雪了......

25 diciembre

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas to All My Dearest Friends May happiness be with you all the time Bless you all 心想事成,喜乐常在
14 noviembre

虫宝宝诞生记

      11月11号是光棍节,也是虫宝宝生日。

      之前的一个月里,我们都在找黄色07款的甲壳虫,但是从Chicago,Indianapolis的各个dealers得到得消息都是全国中部地区都没有基本配置的我们需要的车,而我们的second optional color红色的甲壳虫的价格也不比lafayette当地的dealer便宜多少,所以我们最后决定就在当地买,这样一来不用麻烦别人带我们去Chicago或Indianapolis,二来车保养起来也方便些。当11月8号Indianapolis的最后一个dealer告诉我他们也没有找到黄色甲壳虫后,我当天下去就赶去Mike Raisor(当地dealer)订车了。他们虽然也没有红色甲壳虫,但是可以从别地的dealer换来一辆。他们告诉我车大概周末可以到,到了会给我打电话。

      周五(11月10号)下午收到他们给我的电话,说车已经到了,他们会帮我clean up,装饰一下,灌满油,等我第二天下午4点去取车。好的,终于等到了。但是天气预报并不很favour我周六去取车,说当天会有雨加雪(还是当地的第一场雪)。但是我们盼车心切,也就管不了那么多了。

      11月11号,我们三个(Baobao,海昕和我)还是在图书馆看了一会书(因为接下来的周一有solid state考试),下午大概3点,我打电话去dealer再次确认了一下后,我们就从图书馆出发了。之前没车的日子确实不方便,但是今后就会不一样了,所以我们想坐bus去,然后开车回来,这样的反差会很有意思。但是不幸的是,我们没有赶上第二辆bus,过半小时才有下一趟。我就给dealer打电话,让他来接我们。


我和Baobao在第一辆bus上,海昕拍的。



在店里还看到不少好车,海昕决定以后买这一辆



这辆不是我们的,敞篷的beetle要贵3千刀,而且觉得后面的蓬子没有全收进去不好看



      他们在晚面看别的车,我在办理文件之类的手续。期间那个文秘还把我当成了韩国人:“what are you planning to do after graduate? Go back to South Korea?”昏,中国人就买不起车么???!!! 手续办好后,dealer就带我去看我们的车了。这时候Michael也来了,一直说我们的车很好看。

我们的虫宝宝背面照。我坐在驾驶座上,dealer蹲在边上介绍车内的功能。



      当天晚上回到家,我们就实现了多年来的梦想:开着自己的车去把家里的水桶refill了,哈哈。晚上下起了雨,但是一点也不影响我们去shopping的热情。虫宝宝就在她的车位上度过了第一个晚上。

第二天早上开着车去ee看书,中午接海昕和迪回家吃饭。这是迪在我们pull aside的时候拍的。



      周日上午的阳光很好,老天也在祝福给新生的虫宝宝。我们开到家楼下,没急着上去,在楼下给她来了几张写真。阳光真是太好了,照得红通通的。

先来把车掉转车头,顺光的时候更好拍一些:)



再来张合影~




      现在该介绍一下虫宝宝的profile了。

学名:甲壳虫(台湾名:金龟车)

别名:拉风车,骚包车

昵称:虫宝宝

籍贯:德国 Volkswagen

出生地:墨西哥

肤色:外 salsa red,内 cream人造皮革

交流语言:automatic transmission,gas

引擎:5 cylinders,2.5升汽油,是大众采用Lambogini的V10的一些技术设计的。

其他特性:双门,合金胎框,油箱容量14.5升,ABS,Traction Control, 可折叠后椅,中控门窗,中控后视镜,中控通风,气囊(驾驶员,副驾,边侧),ESP,自动导航,side blinkers......

车内后座,以及前座



前盖打开后,中间银色的是引擎。还很干净哦,开久了久不这样了。



dashboard,CD player,空调口



虫宝宝的屁股



头顶一朵小粉花,呵呵

      有车了,接下来该怎么做呢?嗯,我和Baobao讨论一致认为,有车方便了自己的生活,今后也要多帮助别人。就像我们自己以前被帮助一样。在此感谢Michael给予的技术支持,还有建明,忠强在我考加照练车时给予的大力帮助,还有海昕有条理的分析思考,迪的友情支持(接下来等你咯)。

11 noviembre

明天去接虫子回家咯

虽然看接满街上跑的很多虫子,但是自己能有一只还是很让我兴奋的:D 周一有solid state的考试,要低调,静心复习,嗯。 之后发照片上来~
25 octubre

久违了

好久都没有写blog了,可能是因为最近事情太多了吧。还有一个原因,电脑刚寄到。 purdue的学习还是很紧张的,时不时会来一个midterm,而且一门课不止一个mt,所以大多时间都要提着神。这学期选了两们core courses,还是要花点功夫在上面的,希望QE能过啦。 最近真的发生了好多事,而且大多是好事。不知道是我看问题的态度更加乐观了,还是事情本身就是好的。anyway,just follow my heart. 眼前最大的几件大事就是: 一,这周五晚上的 praise night。如果要说和去年有什么不一样的话,那就是我会怀着更加崇敬的感恩去praise; 二,买车。这是我和baobao近期最重要的事了,我也花了很多心思,只是快要考试了。等过后要更加仔细的研究一番(也许现在就开始了,呵呵); 三,course work和research。这个毫无疑问会对我今后产生很大的影响,所以需要长期的积累和学习。恩,抓紧每天时间,提高效率; 四,当然还有很多零散的事,虽然看上去小,但事也要认真对待,只不定会有某些蝴蝶效应呢。 在国内的和在国外的朋友们都加油吧,相信生活会幸福美好的! I am just in it : )
18 septiembre

zz 我们的大学生活(一下)

zz自亮的blog:http://ishunet.spaces.live.com

 

无聊的大一生活(下)

 

写在前面的话:老子又被欺骗了。Tmd,大学就被骗了N次,这次又被骗了。刚进大学,小飞无缘无故请哥哥喝可乐,来大学前,哥哥是不喝的,结果喝上瘾以后,哥哥请了他一个月。大四的时候,他又请哥哥喝珍珠奶茶,结果从来不喝这玩意的我,又被他骗了,搞到后来几乎是要天天喝!zrl那个烂货说什么写回忆录,结果写了一篇,就说没空了,结果就不写了。什么叫没空?你娃天天坐在家里一个小时接一个小时地铲FIFA,你就有时间?害得现在哥哥一上MSN,就有人催哥哥赶快更新回忆录,这玩意本来就不是哥哥开的头啊!牢骚发完了,接下去,开始正题。

 

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谨以此回忆录系列献给远在大洋彼岸的小飞、工作忙碌的zrl、嘉定孤独的大哥。

更非常兴奋地把此文献给那些熟悉我们又不真正知道我们生活的兄弟姐妹们。

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在开始写大一下回忆录的时候,我先来把前面一些没说清楚的东西,说清楚点。

 

一、zz楼旁边的关东煮。(2002.5 -- 2002.7

最早(20025月那个联读班)去那里吃夜宵的是小飞,他好像有吃茶叶蛋的习惯,开始的时候,每天晚上自修归来,肯定是要去吃两个茶叶蛋,我觉得那玩意很恶心,是不吃的,我一般就买只雪糕,不论冬夏。后来就发展到每天晚上要吃碗泡面。在这段时间里面,MCM跟我们还是经常在一起的。ZRL因为不是很愿意每天晚上去自习,倒不是说他不喜欢读书,因为他没有手机,所以只有每天呆在寝室,好给他GF打电话吧!那时候他的电话卡,厚得来可以拿来当扑克牌用。所以,我们玩他也就成了一种习惯,我们每天晚上在zz楼下的大石头上泡面吃,晒月亮。吃完差不多晚上10点左右,就在楼下大喊zrl,他伸个头出来,哥哥们就狂笑着说:zrl,今晚没活动了!他就大喊一句:“XXX.明早记得叫我占位置。” (略去XX文字)说到占位置,再提一个细节吧!有一次我们仨人,起来的比较晚,早上12节课是在东区上课,而34节课是在上院上高等代数。那时还比较流行占前面的位置听讲。所以就牵涉着谁去上院占位置的问题。谁也不愿意单独去,就说:石头、剪子、布。结果就不用说了,肯定是zrl输了。但是他好像还是不是很愿意去,性情中人的小飞突然一下就不高兴了,冲着就出去了,骑飞车去上院占了位置。这好像是记忆中第一次小小的不愉快。不知道你两还有印象不? (完全么映象了,我只记得我去了就么回来了)我可没忘记。哪怕是不愉快的事情,现在想来,也回味无穷。回到刚才说的吃夜宵的事情,我们还有一个插曲,不知道你两还记得么?那就是当时西区食堂外面的“大饼+九丝土尔特”!我tm跟一般人不一样,老子来大学以前,是不吃牛肉羊肉之类的,哥哥只吃猪肉鸡肉。所以,每次跟飞、zrl去那里买,他俩都买羊肉串,哥哥就买大饼。有一次去的路上,看见安子拿了几个饼从东区转盘那个桥洞下面往zz楼走,等我们到西区食堂外面,发现大饼已经被买光了,我拷!就这样,我们对安子的印象开始变得深刻。 (是啊,那时候就对他留下了特别能吃的映象,当时还是臆断,谁知道真的是这样。这也是安子的很多优点之一)

 

二、大哥的尴尬

因为大1的时候,腼腆 (后来知道腼腆是假,在他朴实的外表下隐藏着很多可怕的潜能,在大学4年里被我们一一开发。他现在能在单位里这么吊,完全是得益于我们)的大哥还不是很和群,因此关于他的记忆还是不是很多。那个时候,他基本就是石器时代。这是zrl造的孽哈!  (那zrl的孽又是谁造的呢?)但是,在这里,还是说一个跟大哥有关系的笑话吧!大1上学期,要考计算机文化基础,大哥因为没怎么复习,其实没人复习。说实话,计算机文化基础是我大学唯一一门完完全全没有在意的一门考试,一页书没有看,进考场依然觉得自己肯定能考好,最后也还不错。哈哈。大哥就惨了,他担心得要死,到处找考卷,结果运气好差,选到了第一时间考试,结果进去就挂了。大1下,要考C++,大哥吸取了上次机考的教训,把考试选到后面,这样就可以参考前面考过的同学的题目。结果呢?C++越往后考,题目越难,毫无疑问,大哥又挂了。我想,他郁闷了好久都没有想通,上天为什么这样戏弄他! (不是上天在戏弄他,而是他在戏弄上天。老天给他安排了这么好的时间,都被他给搞挂了)

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OK,前面写了好多废话,现在开始写大1下的回忆录。

1下发生了些什么,还真不好写,因为的确是很多的无聊,因为没有太多的故事。故事就从物理实验考试吧!全系同学在东500参加了物理实验的宣讲会,告诉大家应该怎么去弄这个事情,尤为重要的是提醒大家,在实验系统打开以后,每个人的帐户和密码都被默认为学号。大家一定要及时改,因为很有可能被别人恶意选实验。这东西没放在心上,出了问题的,恰恰就是大哥。大哥在去机房查选自己的实验时候,发现他已经被别人恶意选了一堆,而且还有1门已经过期了。成绩被搞成了0分,当时,他超级慌,找到管实验的老师大吵大闹,这是我见过大哥在大学期间唯一一次发火的样子。后来我心想,不行,一定要想办法把大哥压住,不能让他野起来,事实也证明,我们在大学成功地完成了这个任务 (那是相当的成功),以至于大哥工作以后,把压抑了4年的情绪全部宣泄在了他的同事身上,哈哈哈!

 

1下是在图书馆1楼度过了,那个时候的小飞,好像杂事不是很多,所以他容易去想一些让他难过的事情。来吧~小飞,我们来回味两件好耍的事情。第一,E区。我想,我们两应该是最早进驻E区的两个人,一个周日,我们在E213那里自修,那个桌子阿、椅子啊,全tm的是新的,爽死了。后来进来两个民工,在讲台上弄来弄去,还问了他们,知道他们来自安徽蚌埠,还知道了蚌埠乱得很~~哈哈。而有几次,在另外一间教室,我们坐在第2排,在我笔记本上面打单机版的台球。 (你的笔记本确实发挥了很大的作用,以至于我现在的室友也还记得很清楚的)当然,在E区最有意思的是发生在:在11间教室里面,我坐第2排,小飞坐第3排,他收到XX的字谜诗,后来被我们 (是你,不是我)猜出来是:我好想你。那次,我看见他的样子,就象看到我的高一,他满脸的开心,那种发自内心的开心,让我都感到幸福。那也是,第一次,在自修的时候,他主动喊我回寝室。 (那当然,以后我也想主动喊你回去,但是你都不出来自习了,我只好喊zrl或大哥了。后来也喊过你,只是把你从寝室叫出来,去打台球)而另外一间好耍的事情是:有一次,我们两在图书馆1楼占了位置看书,我拿了一本图书馆的书放在桌子上面,就去水木打石器了。到了下午,小飞要回去了,就问我要不要帮我收书,我说好。结果,没过多久,他就跑到水木来给我说他在收书的时候,不小心把图书馆的书带出图书馆,结果报警器就叫了。他的图书馆的卡被收了。 (当然记得,那是本pascal,害得我从此以后学计算机语言都有障碍了)慌得很,而且还是跟图书馆管理员吵了一架,后来我跟他回到图书馆跟那个人理论,说是不小心带出来。结果还是不行,小飞写了检讨书,交了钞票才把图书卡拿回来。真尴尬,因为那本书是我放过去的,又没给他说。害了他。当然,后来我们还被收过几次,但是成老油条了,就根本不在乎了!(后来吵都不吵了,知道没有用的。乖乖的写检讨,自己签字,交钱,然后拿书)

 

zrl又在干嘛呢?篮球?好像没见他去过几次吧~~自从买了那个狗屁alcate的垃圾手机以后,基本上就是疯狂发短信了。不管干什么,不管走到哪里,都是短信不断,当时,我就想,X的,怎么还有比我短信都多的人呢?!跟zrl主要是在水木渡过的,我们在水木玩石器时代几乎疯狂,他,是真的觉得好玩,哥哥呢?纯粹是找这个来当寄托,去忘记感情的事情。 (石器是他的phd课程,而对于你顶多算个选修课)

 

时间漫无边际地走到第一个51节。zrl理所当然地回家,我和大哥可不能放过51节这个大好机会,因为网络游戏在节假日都会安排大型活动。我们可是积极地参与阿!小飞呢?好像看创世纪是在国庆吧?第一个51,他是怎么过的呢?抽空来补一下吧?

你忘了还有很重要的一件事:疯狂坦克。就是大一下,zrl,亮你们还记得吧,那个玩得也不少啊。我还找你借笔记本回607玩了的。疯坦大哥玩的最凶,其实什么他都玩的最凶。最后玩的,最早到金勋,主要是由于寝室有个人跟他竞争,所以他秉着“输,只能输学习”的精神,硬是把驰哥给搞到楼下去了

 

关于后半期的故事,说实话,我也记不得太多了。因为我们几乎就是石器、足球、图书馆、短信。这一切都占据了我们的所有生活,而且我们各自还的确没有别的更大的圈子。每天早上,都约好一起吃饭,一起上课。至今我们分析,都发现:好像就是因为我们几个太好了,忽略了别的很多人,更是在我们几个分开学习工作以后,有很大的失落感,在空隙时间,就会觉得孤寂和空虚。因为我们基本已经做到了心灵相通。哪怕是一个眼神一个字,我们就知道对方想说什么想干什么。这样不行啊,久了就会失去和别人交往的能力了,哈哈。

 

无聊的大1生活随着期末考试的结束,也结束了。虽然这段日子不是很精彩,但是是最纯真的,我们都生活在快乐中。

12 septiembre

zz我(们)的大学

     
      一个兄弟最近发表了一篇关于我们在大学的生活点滴回忆,写的so生动以至于我想拿过来进行一次全方位立体式zz。这是发生在“小飞”,“zrl”,“亮”,“大哥”和“马老大”之间的故事。
 
 
writer: 亮,zrl(in yellow),飞(in blue)
 

无聊的大一

zrl太忙了,他娃的文章拖得太久了。我来补大1上学期这部分吧!

1开学是小飞第一个到学校的,我是晚上6点左右才从虹桥机场赶到交大,记得当时是小飞跟东子来接的我,飞帮我托行李,东子指点我应该去体育馆办手续,拿钥匙,然后骑着三轮帮我把放在榛榛楼的行李一路运到D20楼下。当时知道了飞和zrl,以及玩得比较好的同学都分到了22楼。哥哥只好行单影支了。东子帮我搬完以后,就离开了。在这里还是要谢谢哈。小飞陪我收拾东西,在这个过程中,我们第一次知道了一个奇怪的名字,寝室电话响了,我接起来,电话里一个妈妈级的人物重复了4遍,我依然不知道她要找谁,后来就直接说不在。过了会,小飞在4号床上的标签发现了一个奇怪的名字:鄢伟轩。我考,当时我们异口同声的说:什么狗屁名字(后来哥哥知道了第一反映也是“什么狗屁名?!”)。哈哈哈!

第二天中午,我跟小飞去接zrl,好像是zrl的爸爸开奥迪A6送他来的,我kao!这么有钱?后来才知道原来是40一天租的(不是租的,是偷的)。哈哈!调侃一下。陪着zrl那个白痴满学校办手续,然后拖东西,然后,在回寝室的路上,碰见他们一家出去,后来才知道他妈妈说我像读书的,我晕,长那么大,还是第一次被别人说长得象读书的,zrl妈妈真有眼光阿!佩服佩服(不用PF,类不知道笼民读书为致富么,都很拼命的)。

送走他家人以后,又开始了大学百无聊赖的生活了。这可真称得上百无聊赖。

这段日子,严格意义上来说,还是我们去课堂时间最多的,先哲云:地皮还没踩熟,不要乱跳。因为我跟他们已经不在一起上课了,所以他们课堂上发生了什么有趣的事,我是不知道了。反正我的课堂,基本是在想事情。课后是毫无疑问的在一起吃饭,这也是唯一一个学年,我们3人几乎每天每顿都在一起,东区食堂成了我们最high的地方,经常high到没有人敢坐我们旁边(补充一下,往往是我们边吃边high,吃完或者吃了一半后四处打望MM的时候,发现方圆4张桌子之内都已经么宁了)。当然最少不了的,还是那杯Pepsi。太棒。

大概在开学不久,我们就把自修的阵地从东区各大教室转战到了图书馆1楼。这是小飞踩点的结果,他说那里坐着舒服,而且书不会像教室那样被放到一边。我跟zrl当然是欣然答应,因为图书馆离水木网吧更近了(这是主要原因,哈哈哈)。哈哈!

现在岔出去说另外一个人。话说有一次,小飞和zrl都比较忙,他们没办法跟我一起吃饭,习惯了一群人吃饭的我,还真不习惯一个人去。就问同寝鄢同学去不去,他说好啊。就这样,又一个人被我拉了进来。有一天,我要去水木,大哥也跟着去,他去了后,我考,比zrl还滥,当年zrl跟哥哥去网吧至少还会oicq.大哥连网页都不会开,就在那里操CS.哥哥自然是铲石器时代。哎。。。大哥让哥哥教他打石器时代,哥哥死活不肯,因为Zrl是前车之鉴。结果,没想到的是:zrl后来跑去教他。真是ft!小飞来我们寝室玩,又因为我跟大哥都在一起上课,所以自然而然,大哥也进了我们的圈子。他以诙谐白痴的造型出没在我们的面前,并耍的一手绝活,先是可以用任何柱状物体敲打出轻快的打击乐.其次是可以放双手骑自行车行驶超过200.因为大哥在石器时代里面的人物是骑绿虎的,又加上其自行车是绿色,所以就爱称其为绿虎.顺便在这里说一个女生,某次高数课上,大哥说前面某排有个女生身材很好,哥哥当时哪有心思管这些事情哦,没理他.后来他接23地说了很多次,我才注意到,并把这个事情告诉了zrl,我考,他娃看后流口水。娘的,真没出息,我又告诉小飞,他也流口水,ft!有没有搞错啊??因此此女生那段时间喜欢穿一件绿色衣服,大哥就爱称这位女生为绿虎。哈哈哈。这就是后来的夏J同学。

话题回到我们的圈子,话说电子信息工程要举办足球比赛,打5班那天,我们班人手不够,就请来小飞跟大哥当帮手,虽然最后还是输得比较惨,但是,至少让我感觉到我们3人之间的配合还是非常舒服,尤其是小飞富有创造性的传球,和大哥那神乎奇迹的脚法,真是叹为观止!号称小学踢球产生心理阴影的zrl只能在场边喝可乐,当观众了。不过,后来进化成了各大球队的守门员,这厮到处蹭守门员当(没办法,谁叫哥哥有守门的天赋呢,不要太羡慕哦),中场休息还要抽烟,真以为赛后一根烟,快乐似神仙阿?可是,因为我们的比赛,而耽误了小飞的开会,搞得后来和马老大闹别扭,还把人家弄哭了,我考,这还真是我没想到的,更何况,小飞没去开会,完全是因为帮我们踢球造成的。虽然后来调解得还算不错,当我还是多少有些心有余悸。

时间飞逝而过,很快到了在交大呆的第一个中秋节了,zrl好像是去参加浙江的同乡会了,我和小飞都没去各自的同乡会,我俩骑着车在交大兜圈子,找到一个“脏乱差”的地方吃小炒,我还记得当时点了:土豆肉丝、青椒肉丝、番茄蛋汤。我俩都一致认为环境虽然差点,但是口味绝对地道。该地方已经被拆了,变成了现在的华联生活中心。那天晚上,是小飞第一次给我认真讲他的心事,至此刻起,他一讲就是4年啊!

时间继续地走,我也基本不怎么读书,但是自己基础还行,所以也没挂太多课程,每学期一门,哈哈。到了12月底,迎来了在交大的第一个圣诞节,老天恩赐,能遇见大雪。我跟小飞在西区食堂复习考试,好像是复习化学导论。后来关门了,我们在那些铺满厚雪的汽车上面写自己恋人的名字,两个小男生用这种方式去表达感情,现在看起来,倒是很白痴。靠,不是说我跟小飞BBM哈!平生第一次见如此大雪,还是很开心的。同样也忘记zrl跑哪里去了,好像是回家给他GF电话了吧!半年下来,我跟小飞已经友谊太深了。跟zrl,也是非常要好,但真正成为出生入死的时候,是他感情多有波动以后。这个以后再说。

过了元旦,面临的就是各类考试,完全没多想,只是想考完早点回家。某夜8点半,小飞陪我去学校门口拿机票,引得他一镇羡慕,倒不是钱不钱的问题,主要是我可以很早就回到家。

随着寒假的来临,我们真正的大学生活也算是正式拉开了序幕。这半期还有很多有趣的事情,估计只有等zrl来补充了,补上他那部分

不用哥哥来补了,剩下的都是些私事,不便公开
 
记得好清楚啊。想起来真是对不起mkm。很多时候都没能控制自己的情绪,造成了严重后果。
 
还有我来补充:
 
      大一上的考试都是熬过来的。当时真的没有学习的动力,整个人都快垮了。足球网球也成了我(们)发泄的主要途径。记得一考完期末考试我们就去东区楼下踢球,我们三个组队和别人踢,输了。由于一点摩擦差点和别人打起来了,亮算是冷静把我拉开了,要不然还真不知道我之后还会不会继续留在交大。那是我经历的最冷的一个冬天,也是最low的时候。老天可怜我,让我和一帮兄弟在一起。挺过来了。虽然之后的几个冬天也冷,但是觉得那是一种幸福,在永和豆浆,自由港,哪怕是在高频考试期间我们也无时无刻不在放肆的享受着这一点点squeezed出来的美妙感觉。
      那时候吃关东煮还要去zz楼那里,不习惯在宿舍那里吃。虽然吃了无数次,但是亮每次还是要问“这是什么肉”。都不记的啊。zz楼外面石头上的泡面,每次都要谈起那个“朱mj,没活动了”的事情,还有,第一次和大哥认识原来早在半年前和他踢过一次mini足球,他穿着纽卡锁尔的队服(后来很多次他说那是尤文的)。这些都是5月份在zz楼的事了,那里关东的老板也和我们混熟了,隔几次都会说“真快,你们来都半年了”,后来是“一年”,“两年”,“四年”。以至于最后对于那段回忆永久的定格。
     
 
04 septiembre

Agassi's Speech to the Fans

       Sept, 3, 2006, 2:45pm.
      Agassi left his beloved game.
      his speech to the Arthur Ashe crowd after his loss was tennis gospel, letting him have the final word on his career:
 
      "The scoreboard said I lost today, but what the scoreboard doesn’t say is what it is I have found. Over the last 21 years, I have found loyalty. You have pulled for me on the court and also in life. I found inspiration. You have willed me to succeed, sometimes even in my lowest moments. And I've found generosity. You have given me your shoulders to stand on, to reach for my dreams, dreams I could never have reached without you. Over the last 21 years, I have found you, and I will take you and the memory of you with me for the rest of my life."
 
      Viva for the icon! Thanks for bringing me into the game, and I have been given so much for that. Wish you all the best!
17 agosto

我要坚强

      和去年一个季节来到美国,来到同一所学校,同一天入住新房间。
      差不多时间收到了来自国内的令人震撼的消息,唯一不一样的就是这次比上次更加悲痛。
     
      电话里听到爸说要告诉我一个件事,要我坚强的时候,我已经知道什么事情了。上天在我还没离开上海的时候就开始了这个悲剧,这几天一直打家里的电话没人接,虽然没有确定,我下意识的察觉到了些许不对。
      这一切来的很自然,没有疼痛,也没什么好抱怨和可惜的,天意。但为什么是选在在我刚离开的时候,这时家里都还处在过渡期,对于整个家庭来说是一个灾难,起码对我来说是的。如果我在家里,也许还能帮上些忙,而我现在什么都不能做,我恨。。。
      
      爸说外公是来保佑我的,我很愿意接收这种说法,因为这样我不至于为没能赶上最后一眼而难受——他是来和我在一起了,离我更近了。
      国内的人都能带着白花去看他,而我离的好远,我也想去跪在他碑前哭啊......
      想不到上次送他回家竟然是最后一面了。翻开以前的相片,我真希望自己能坚持住。

      我能用什么纪念他老人家呢?
 
      现在最希望的就是外婆能挺过来,妈妈能挺过来,还有舅舅、舅妈和姐。
     
      我想起来了,我的名字是外公起的,这就足够让我满足了!我能感受到外公的存在,他就在我身边。
     
07 agosto

我走咯~

      在和最爱我的人和我最爱的人们告别之后,我终于要离开了.分手总是很难受的,但是也是难免的.每个人最后都有自己的生活,都会活在自己的世界里,而现在我要做的就是为给自己一个这样的世界而打拼.
      常常会想像,几年以后回来,大家会变成什么样子,都会有哪些成就,哪些改变......一想到这些,我就会让自己鼓起勇气和信心,不会被困难吓倒,好好的生活.
      分离是为了未来的团聚,加油吧,兄弟姐妹们一起"干吧爹"~~~
       
06 julio

Final Scenes

        大学四年,不曾关注过周围的小细节,什么时候见到谁这种问题也只有在最后分开的时候才会想到,我就按乱序随便写写吧
       
        球球:6月28号晚上和黄亮在逛校园时,在东20,21,22之间的空地处见了大学里的最后一面,当时都在回寝室路上。
 
        马林庆:6月30号上午一起办成绩单,送他出校门,我在门口处停住了目送他最后一眼,他和其他球队队员出去打车。
 
        林贺:6月30号送完马林庆的那个下午,2点左右我和易里安一起骑车送他到门口,路上沉默着,最后在行政楼门口停住了,三个人互相看看,憋不住了。抱成一团。
 
        赵梦:6月28号毕业典礼最后集体照时见到了大学里的最后一面。
 
        汤恒胜:7月3号上午,从张江回寝室拿两证的时候碰见他,当时我下楼,他上楼。我说中午会赶回来再见见面。谁知回来时他已经走了。
 
        马康目:6月30号在寝室外碰见他下楼,他说周一(7月3号)会回来,我说到时再见,可周一就没碰到过了。
 
        曲巍:7月1号上午8点,从张江赶到火车站送他,在进站口告别。
 
        关韡:7月1号回寝室理东西,弄好后又去了张江黄亮那,出门时和他拜拜,说好8月上海再见。
 
        吴侃:7月1号在寝室洗澡,他就走了。我把淋浴间开了个小缝,和他告别的。8月上海见。
 
        田玥:7月3号回学校,上午骑车经过21栋楼下时碰见他骑车出门,说去实验室有事。
 
        史子炀:6月28号毕业典礼自己搬凳子回寝室时,在sc湖旁碰见他往外走,估计是回家,叫他也没听见,小胖。
 
        傅颖:6月30号下午,找老师办好户口的事情,和大哥他们分开走,我从电院楼经过东区食堂回寝室,在东区转盘那碰见傅颖,打着伞带着耳机。
 
        曾祥昆:6月28号晚上和双儿还有她bf吃饭时,他也在场,不知道他第二天就上火车了。8月应该见得到。
 
        冯闯:7月2号中午,周末在张江黄亮那玩,1号晚上我们一起看球的,法国1:0巴西。第二天中午去他住的地方看看,之后在他家门口的便利店告别,当时还有王亚斌。
 
        鄢伟轩:6月30号和黄亮一起送他去南站长途车站,陪他等了好久,送他进站上车。
 
        朱瑞琳:7月2号周日,他第二天上班,正好从杭州回住的地方,在龙阳路地铁站附近。我和黄亮去他那里玩,当时还有王奕和张昕。玩到9点左右,他送我们到车站上了方川线。
 
        黄亮:7月3号上午7:20,我要赶回去拿两证,然后10点校车去徐汇校区。他也是第一天上班,把他弄醒后,他送我到家门口,我下楼走了。8月见。
 
        华颖:7月3号下午4点在寝室楼下告别的,我去机场赶飞机回武汉。
 
        易里安:7月3号下午4点,他和华颖送我到寝室楼下,帮我把行礼搬到出租车上,hug for goodbye。8月上海见。
 
        文佳一:6月29号办理离校手续,我带她到光彪楼一起办,后来因为我要等户口那个队,而她要去退图书卡而走开了,后来没碰见过。8月见。
 
 
        还有很多很多和朋友在大学间的最后一面,在我记忆里永远不灭,永远......